Birthday Thursday
Today is Birthday Thursday. On the first Thursday of every month, everyone at work celebrates the birthdays and accomplishments of that month, and then they binge on chocolate, oatmeal creme pies, and cream cheese danishes. Since I don’t technically ever get a real “break”, they always wheel up the leftover goodies around 3:30 for us poor organ center souls to devour. I can’t really go wrong since I had a creme pie for breakfast and snacked on tostitos and queso dip all day. I somehow justify this by telling myself it’s ok since I’ve been taking exercise classes the last two days, which really isn’t even that amazing, but it makes me feel like I have somehow evened out the bad habits with the good. Actually what it has made me is too sore to exercise tonight, which means I probably just gained 40 pounds.
What is it about sitting all day that makes me so bored that I can’t control my appetite? I’m not using any energy! I’m perplexed.
I fell asleep watching the Republican Convention last night and I had to finally turn it off because it was making my stomach turn. I was excited to hear about McCain’s pick for VP at first because no one had ever heard of Sarah Palin (especially not myself) and I figured that would be a plus for Obama. Then when all the media frenzy broke out about her husband and her daughter I figured that would be a good thing as well (although I don’t agree with the media publicity of the daughter’s pregnancy, and I don’t really think anyone cares about that so much as they enjoy gossiping). But what did I see last night and on the news today?! Everyone is in love with this woman because of her fantastic speech!? This speech that she didn’t even write?! (is it true that president bush’s speech writer wrote this?) She sounded so mean! I understand that sometimes in politics you have to get down and dirty, but I feel like her comebacks and her jokes were just plain over the top. Her accent also makes me cringe.
Maybe I’m just totally frustrated because I really want Obama to win. This is the first year I’ve truly paid close attention to the presidential race and I’m getting totally aggravated! I can’t wait for the debates…
On a related sidenote, my body hates me and I have totally lost faith in the medical system. After almost three years of weird symptoms and no diagnoses and jumping from one medication to another that never do anything, I have found another doc who wants to try me on some funky medicine that costs $87 for one month (thats with insurance). God forbid I didn’t have the insurance, and I would probably have had a heart attack dealing with all the stress of not being able to go to the doctor when I needed to. So, even though I have had it up to here with docs, I am still grateful that I am able to see them. And, I still enjoy working in the medical field, and feel that my experience in it has made it easier on me to navigate my way around it. It seems strange that a patient needs to be their own advocate but that seems to be the way it is at times. I keep reminding myself to relax and stay positive and as productive as possible. Another reason I feel so passionately about universal health care (in Australia you pay to see the doctor and then they reimburse you! Amazing!!) We still have a long way to go but I think it is totally possible, so why not?!?!
I am off for the next 5 days. My family was going to have the most massive yard sale on earth Saturday but Hurricane Hanna or whatever her name is has threatened rain so they’ve cancelled. My parents are the most packratty people and I am super excited that they are getting rid of some of their stuff (ok, like 5% but that’s still a start!) I was also going to take Chance to the pug meetup in Richmond at Byrd park sat morning, but I suppose that will be postponed as well. Last time I tried to take him he freaked out all night and was so nervous that I had to take him back to my parents house at 3am! The yard sale I suppose will be happening next sat instead, and that is the day I am moving into my new apartment! There are talks of an Ikea trip on Sunday if it is nice, so that should be good.
I feel lately like I am just going through with the motions in life. I keep worrying about everything and something just seems to be missing. I miss Matt and am totally looking forward to him coming to visit in November. Although even with that, I am already thinking about how I am going to be sad because he’s only here for two and a half weeks, instead of being happy that he is visiting at all! I always knew that the long distance thing would be difficult but it has taken me and still is taking me a lot of self control to pull myself back and lower my expectations instead of being a super needy crazy girl like I was doing for a while. Obviously without having face to face interactions with someone can distance two people, and I am super anal about keeping up communication (to the point where my phone bill is ridiculous). Basically, I am taking a step back to ease the tension and will see if this has a chance of working out. Not knowing what the future holds for this is stressful but I’ve come to terms with it for the time being.
Totally excited about going to San Francisco in Nov and exploring the redwood forests and all that city has to offer! Can’t wait to also show Matt the ins and outs of Richmond since he didn’t have the greatest opportunity to explore last time he was here!
Phew. I’m done for today. I can’t wait to crawl into bed and read.
Happy birthday, Thursday.
